Pandemic. Very limited Parties this past year. So I haven't been Drawing as much as usual.

It's great that my Art Skills support me in my connections with other people. Interacting with them. Inspiring them to be happy with their realities. But when I'm Alone, why would I draw?

Drawing isn't Only about communicating.

and Drawing isn't only about Seeing what's 'out there'. It's also about putting it down on paper with the wonderful Art Supplies.

I haven't felt like putting it onto the Paper lately. Instead, I've been focusing on exercising my eyes. The tiny muscles that move the eyes forward and back for distance. The tiny muscles that move the eyes in all the directions of the eye-spheres. It's enough to experience Sight. I haven't had any reason to also put parts of it down onto Paper.

But I do feel like we get away from the wonder/joy of the Supplies when we're performing that which our clients want... the production of x-number per hour ~ the only drawing people for the next few hours ~ the make'm look pretty (or the make'm wildly exaggerated). Nothing wrong with enjoying People. But for when I'm Not with people?

Ahah! I just noticed that I enjoy it as mindlessly as I enjoy watching tv. I don't really get anything out of it. Not like playing the drums to harness my mind (meditation). Not like exercising to stay healthy. Not like cleaning the house to be safe from dust and bug-germs-filth. I just can't find an Intrinsic reason to draw when I'm alone. Feels unnecessary, but I just like it.

I like to experience the satisfaction of perfect IPad lines the way I had been hypnotized in the experience of using the liquid tempera paints outside in the sun when I was 3-years old. Immersed in the IPad the way I had been immersed in the outdoor environment.

It's a completely different experience than drawing Live at Parties. Giving comfort to mySelf instead of giving myself the Art-Inspired connections with other people. For a while. They're Both important things to do.

Update the next day: lol ~ no sooner than I posted this, than My friends started inviting me to lots of Online groups and well.... just reaching out to me in general. I do appreciate that, but I can't do it All. Mostly because it cuts in to what I was tryig to say here that I Really want to do. I'm not writing about trying to Avoid being alone. I'm writing about Embracing being alone.

I go to every Job I possibly can ~ whether it's Online Or In-Person. But when I'm not working, I try to be Alone even more often than I am with people. I feel like it's important to have a relationship with yourSelf before experiencing society.

And Update even the next day after That: I GOT IT! Because when I'm alone, perhaps honing my skills or focusing on different aspects of what/how to draw, I am using a part of my brain that is similar to using my brain when playing Word Games. As people get older, they might get concerned about losing their mental facilities if they hadn't been in the practice of exercising their brains ~ and I'd rather Enjoy using my brain Before problems set in, than to get problems and then need therapy.

Drawing is Not like watching tv. Watching tv is just being the Audience. Drawing is being the Performer. Drawing is more like Scrabble/Upwords/Scattegories. It's to exercise My Brain. Drawing is to stay skillful with visual and fine motor abilities.

Drawing is just another way to use my brain. There's WordGames, Meditation, Understanding what people say, Math, Drums.... And Drawing! I do these things when I'm alone to keep many different aspects of my brain functioning.